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Name: yen
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Birthday: 6/18/1989
Gender: Female

Interests: umm....anything art. the look, the feel, the process! ahh!! its amazing! i love to sing and act as well. to draw..oh to draw..*day dreams* the expression of the soul through materials. beautiful! the rain!! WIND!!!!! holy crap...i LOVE wind. its like nature's seduction. it can be gentle and then it will swell and engulf you and no part of your body it safe from its touch. *sigh*..XD
Expertise: well i pride myself in opinion giving and being able to scare males away and attract the ones that cant handle me. :] superior rating at solo contests, ...had a 4.0...:( technically..im not an expert at anything..just know how to do alot of things. :)
Occupation: student

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Member Since: 1/23/2005

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

runnin around in my black xtra long basketball shorts!!!
dunno why im trying to stay awake..maybe im hungry...

be right back

so...got some munchage...lovely lovely munchage.

the only joy in life right now as i have no Kev, no time for naked dance sessions in my room, no time for random trips to the pool or special dinners with the crazies on my floor. *sigh*

alright enough! yen yen needs to take a dose of her meds so she can continue to be the sweet onion...not the tart evil one.

athena is back to par..almost...shes come back really bossy...evil little twit really...*slaps self*..X< oooow!!....ATHENA!!! damn you!

must finish my glorious food and go to "zzZz wake up zzzZZ wake up ...stare at the clock for an hour...ZZzzzzzzzzzz EEEE EEE EEEE EEE EEEE EEE" land....

yeah.....

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

fill me white ghost
you were sent to torment me. must you come so suddenly and stay so long?

i breathe you in......deep until my lungs ache and mouth tastes like ash..

a knife to the gut....would it...could it work? if i didnt cut too deep? just enough to get under the layers of skin...i want it gone.
to cut it out.

tears of lament...dont stain my pillow..please god dont.

you cant find time for me can you? just keep pushing me further and further into memory
i cant make you proud can i? not enough for you to come through?

Courtney...
what is my name? what am i?

white ghost....please...please im crying at your feet. take me with you
please please please please please pleas pleass please plseasp lepslaa dghngndbmx, vc

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

*sigh*....

i ...am a walking contradiction....

i am a feminist that loves being in love...
how does that work exactly?

and how can i truly love someone without involving a certain perfect individual?
*bigger sigh*...
i see a flaw...and im not sure how to fix it without maybe leaving a stain..

so now im a wandering christian feminist that loves being in love...
a wandering, hopeful realistic/ unrealistic christian that wants to do things right and love God first and still love being in love.
.....
no matter the consequences....

i can still taste it on his breath.....like a moldy wet rag set out in the sun...in my mouth...

how many have you had?....oh....*zones*.....oh.......
how many have you done?...oh...*zones* .......oh..........

*holds the heart in her hands* its beginning to look slimier and less faith driven..but im sure mine isn't any better...
should i embrace this fact and get over it? or should i try again...

..........the answer came to me before i even finished typing...

the question now is.....will he follow...and can i be strong enough to support him too?

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

so...*collapses*

i feel accomplished...and exhausted.

*zones out*
i went over to kev's abode to pick up my charger and his shirt after he got off work because the twit forgot to bring them to work with him ..despite his efforts to remember..*sigh*

well, like what usually happens when im with him...i was entertained and therefore distracted from leaving...again. so another wonderful night with my love and his lovely snoring..XD
but since i had my first class at 10:30 like usual..i woke up around 8:30...then 9:00....then 9:15...i didnt want to move!!!! he was warm...his bed was soft...school sucks!

grr...but i eventually left....like..20 minutes before i needed to be at my class and i still had to find parking and also change clothes before i went to class....ugh X<

well...after driving around every where else for more than five minutes, im excited to say that i found rockstar parking *does victory dance* and changed with about 8 minutes to spare before i had to leave for class.

*bows* thank you, thank you. i am amazing!

i also almost forgot about my participation today...
i participated in the day of silence. I was silent for "abstinence until marriage"....it was REALLY hard to stay quiet

i ended up giving up around sixish because i COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! XD

went swimming today...and then again defeated the purpose of exercise.....ate a ginormous juicy bacon and cheddar burger with waffle fries..i completely ate too much..i feel like i might implode then supernova...

i tried to make myself throw at least some of it back up. no can do..

i have a really strong stomach or something...not much makes me puke...

ok so...the LIST of what i have done..since 4/10- 4/15

wrote and finished a play evaluation
i took my history test and made an 82% on it and im maintaining a B adverage...go me! plus 20 extra points for being there every class..
i called in an estimate for my tattoo...anywhere from $60-100 ...for a half inch in diameter star on my hand in black ink.....STUPID!!
i talked to my adviser about classes for next fall
declared my major
applied at UCO for the summer
enrolled for next fall... but all the psyc courses are closed....
i talked to a dude at the registrar office to see if there were any seats still open in the course i wanted...there were a few..
i had to email and call the head of the department to see if i could still get into the class...still no reply
paid off my bursar bill
turned in my FAFSA aid stuff

.....

....yeah.....and that's just the important stuff....not counting class and social life.

ANYWAY!

i have a concert this sunday and then another one on the 24th. ....ok...so i have some beef with a particular song......

its inspired by Ecuador and the guy directing us wants us to sound like actual African women.. which requires us to sing REALLY bright and REALLY forward...its quite ugly...

now imagine if you will.....25 women in gothic cupcake dresses standing in straight rows..not really moving.......with scrunched faces and sounding like constipated spider monkeys....

yeah...i wish we could at least shimmy around like the African women or something!..

ok im done blabbing...
sleepy time she comes!

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Friday, April 10, 2009

well i finally have some time to myself now. ...*takes a deep breath*

i walked around campus today after i met up with Patrick. he came down to see the jazz concert and i wanted to give him a glomping before he went in.

but i just....walked around...played in the wind.

made me oober happy. the weather was perfect...there was only one thing missing...

i picked some more flowers to put on my wall while i walked around..its getting very colorful.

i likey
i hung upside down on one of the benches and imagined myself holding on for dear life so i wouldn't fall into the sky.

i watched people go by too. they looked funny. XD

i was starting to walk back when i saw two girls sitting on the side of library lawn. something came over me...probably the wind ..lol but i wanted to say hello and ask if i could sit and enjoy the weather with them. as i got closer one of them said hi...really friendly... i knew one of the girls after all. coincidence?...well we started talking and we prayed over the campus and they invited me to go to a worship group meeting in the union...i was really hesitant but i said sure anyway. im really glad i went.

Court texted me tonight...and for a reason...his problem was on my heart and i had the patience to deal with him.
i told him what he needed to hear. i only hope that i was the voice that he hears. that i was the one and that he'll finally get it.

well im talking to my love right now.

im going to go cover myself in his silky voice. mmm..

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